Saturday, July 9, 2016

Home

James and Ellie Carr
Today we find ourselves packing to move yet again.  It is a chilly rainy Saturday just outside of Guatemala City as we empty out our closet drawers into suitcases and once again try to put all of our belongings into boxes while somehow keeping them organized.  Moving isn't a new thing to me, yet it is not the norm that I had hoped for my life.  Throughout my entire childhood, my family only moved one time, and I believe the same is true of James' family as well.  Once I reached college however, the concept of home became a more foreign concept.

With this being my fourteenth move in eight years, I'm beginning to feel that we have become some sort of nomads or wanderers.  Although I want to see it as though James and I have been very flexible and are constantly seeking and ready to follow God where He calls, this move has also been more difficult on me emotionally than others.

I find myself longing for a home.  I see Riley growing up faster than I could have imagined and I think back on my own childhood.  I always had a home growing up- a physical address that I knew, but more than that, it was a feeling of safety, warmth and relaxedness that accompanied the physical house.  I long to provide that to Riley.  I long to have a place where our family can grow and have those same feelings of warmth.  I wonder what Riley will call home as she grows up.




Questions like, "Where do you call home?" and "Where are you from?" are beginning to become more complicated than I expected, and know one day Riley will also be a little confused trying to answer questions that should be so simple.  Yet I cling to the hope delivered in God's word-



"Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!
 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? 
Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
 “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 
If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! 
 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 
 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 
 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well. 
 “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 
 Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
Luke 12:24-34
The house that will be our family's home at Fundaniños
I see the children we are going to be working with at the children's home and am grateful, however, that God has given our family a house to live in and love to bring us together.  That is more than most of those children have.  I also see and am part of a tight community of missionaries in similar circumstances as our own family.  I know that they face the same struggles we do and rest their hope on similar truths.  I know what God has provided our family with is more than what we need, and in His abundance we find comfort for today, hope for the future, and joy as a family.  We praise Him for meeting our needs on a daily basis, and the abundance of love He has put in our household.  We know that our treasure is in heaven and strive daily to give our hearts over to the Lord to bring glory to his name.  We find hope again in God's unchanging promises-

"But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself."
Philippians 3:20-21


Will you pray for our family as we transition this week to Fundaniños?

- that the move itself would be smooth and easy
- that we are able to form new strong relationships with the staff and children in the orphanage
- that God would equip us to spiritually lead the children and staff there
- that Riley adapts to yet another move and huge change for our family
- that our family continues to serve God and seek Him first in our new position

We thank you so much for supporting our family and lifting us up during this next transition and next phase of service as we seek to make God's great name known and show His love to others through doing so.

Much love,
James+Ellie

Addendum- These are completely my thoughts & feelings and things I am still processing throughout our journey.  It may seem as though I can easily throw a Bible verse out there and decide to base my hope, emotions, and even my mood on it, but rarely is that the case.  I spent the evening after writing this exhausted and in tears (as well as the next evening after that) longing for a stable home like so many friends back home have.  I can say with certainty though, that God has a purpose in drawing our family to Guatemala.  We can't always see why, or where His path leads, but we know that He does not make mistakes.  We fight to pick up our cross and seek after Him daily, and are spurred on by the encouragement and support of His church.

James and Ellie Carr / Author & Editor

James and Ellie Carr have been missionaries in Gautemala since 2014 and write to share their feelings and how they have experienced God's goodness and mercy on the mission field.

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